Coming in last but definitely not least ;)

This reminds me of the marathon in Seattle where they were picking up the cones behind me as I finished the marathon. Nonetheless I made it and I am finally here to blog my way through another kind of marathon. Thanks for the delightful submissions so far - have enjoyed them and so glad we are doing the cyberspace thing rather than living together in a commune while we go through this journey. Debbie you would banish me or vote me out or put my name under the salver on day one. I am vague about everything, and shuffle along (there is some sort of beat, in my own head of course) and generally bump along through life, so your OCD gift would be severely frustrated with my bumbling character for sure.
So, let me start my thoughts. Clearly Lindsey has found another way, (believe me she has tried many, many different things and for that I applaud her) to get me focused and stop my shiftless ways, and as I contemplated this public version of my battle I thought I would not go too far back into the past, and then a piece of paper slipped out of my notebook yesterday and I found a "report" on the condition of my body dated 6th June 2008. I weighed 134.5kg then. I can't even remember who did such a marvellous roundup - some or other programme I joined in desperation, because at that weight even my fattest clothes pop at the buttons.

It got me thinking. I lost 7kg with that programme. In December I found myself at 133kg and lost 4 of those by the time I saw Lindsey in February. I lost a further 7 kg while with Lindsey, the lowest I have been for a couple of years. So, stay with me here everyone, I found myself up to 127kg last month and managed to lose another 3 kg in May. Now I am up to 126 kg and filled the fridge and cupboards up this weekend to embark on another "focused" attempt.
OK, now just in case that was all lost on you, let me summarize.
In a year I have lost 21 kg - nearly half of what I would like to lose to get me back to healthy and super active. That is quite something, except that I put it all back again.
The one positive is that it appears that I get back on the horse a little sooner each time. I have not gone up to 134.5 kg again, so I am feeling good about that. I am also wondering what on earth I am doing entertaining those gaps where I put on at all. How divine to be 21 kg closer to my goal!!!!!!!!!!
The other positive thing I managed to unearth as I sat on the loo contemplating my report from last June is that I actually lost all that weight! Now I just need to stop putting on inbetween. My message to self this week is "You do great job losing, now just avoid the "put on" phases. Bizarrely that sounds easier than losing. I know, I know, I warned you I march to the beat of my own drum!
So, this week is all about doing what I know how to do and that is eating good stuff and watching for that place where I stop, so that I can change the habit. Next week will be about being less vague and more precise.
Have a great week - look forward to blogging my way through to November, (unless I am voted out of cyberspace of course!)
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