Well, Lindsey was right - silence is not golden when it comes to me. I have had a really out of control week. Tipping point followed by a bad week! Ouch! I did not pack lunch one day this week. I did not do any POGS and I worked till the wee hours because whenever I go overseas I feel like I have to do the week's work in advance. It doesn't work well because I feel the backlog when I come back anyway. Oh well, maybe Sao Paulo will make up for the hectic week I have just had. I really, really struggle to pace myself with workload. I go full tilt and then collapse, then get up, dash again, and all fall down - I really love the rush of full tilt I guess and don't enjoy wogging through life at all. The problem is that I used to do full tilt for quite a long period, now as I hit half a century the full tilt is actually a pathetic little rush from one lampost project to the next with great huffing and puffing while I lean on something inelegantly. So, I will ponder this in my business class seat over the Atlantic where the Air France plane met it's demise recently and actually use the 12 hours to read Skinny Bitch and get turned off food for life ;) and order my mind and get perspective again.
I am still not excercising very much as the biokinetisist and the physio work with me three times a week to try and straighten my spine and build strength into my left side. Today I sat strapped into some high chair that felt like I was fighter pilot strapped into a cockpit while they tested muscles and all sorts. The right leg is 56% stronger than my left and I am told that the muscles are not firing in the correct order. Well I have known that about other parts of me but this is a revelation. I also spent another night in hospital doing neuro obs while they try to find the one brain cell I claim to have. No conclusive results leave everyone else still wondering!
Anyway, I KNOW what to do - just need to do it. I could not agree more about the writing down of food. I KNOW the secret lies therein. So, good luck to both of you as I get up off the floor and face a new week.
I will probably not post while in Brazil as our schedule is quite hairy and then I am at the Palace for three days at Sun City, so back at work on 23rd.
Healthy living!
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Denise, so glad to hear from you. I had my weekly time with Lindsey this morning. She asked me difficult questions, which I could not answer due to my commitment of "NO EXCUSES". All of the responses in my head were just excuses. This made me think about how much our heads, or what is inside controls our decisions. I went to the ART Chiro after Lindsey and had work done on my left side (HMMM what is it with the leftside?), then to the bookstore and bought a calorie book and started that damn journal book. I have commited to writing everything down, which is something I always resist. So let's make a decision to write down everything we eat for at least this week!
ReplyDeleteI guess I better commmit with you both ~ so this week will be the week of writing it ALL down. Drum roll please. Why is it when we know better we still don't DO better?
ReplyDeleteGood luck on your trip Denise & please keep track of your 1 remaining brain cell - don't let it get stuck with any lost luggage!
ReplyDeleteI am in with you both - on my way to breakfast!!!!!
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